interviews with myself: becoming emotionally single
02: living in the question and stepping into dating with a full heart
But first, BIG life updates…
I started this year by stepping away from Instagram for nine months—a choice to be more present with the mundane and truly sit with my dreams. And in just the first two months of slowing down, something unexpected happened: a version of my dream life began to unfold. I moved into a brand new apartment last month. One that I’m absolutely in love with.
Last Friday, Mayumi Market and Slow Jamz Gallery hosted their first Pop The Balloon event—a dating game you might’ve seen floating around YouTube or TikTok, and my friends convinced me to sign up to be a contestant (!!!)
LA folks! I’m currently co-creating an in-person workshop with one of my dear friends whose work I deeply admire. It’ll be a space where breath-work, meditation, and writing meet. We’re aiming for it to take place at the end of May.
And soon, I’ll be opening up my calendar to welcome a few new one-on-one meditation clients!
More details and deeper reflections to come—stay tuned.
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For the first time in a long time, I feel emotionally single. Not just in the sense of not being in a relationship—but in the sense that there’s no one I’m holding space for in the background. No lingering emotional attachment. No quiet what-ifs.
I wrote a piece last year titled “on my boyfriend-non-boyfriend relationships & why my love life feels anything but stale.” It felt incredibly true to the season I was in. I was surrounded by connections that fed me. Some platonic, some romantic-ish. And I genuinely felt fulfilled. I wasn’t trying to define anything or make it fit into a box. I found real beauty in letting things be what they were, without expectation or pressure to become more.
Now, I’m in a season where I’m truly making more space for a kind of love that can grow into a solid partnership.
I grew up conditioned to believe love had to look a certain way. In a way that felt rigid, transactional, almost like a trap. That belief sent me searching for something different. I explored new perspectives, like solo polyamory and non-monogamy. And while those paths expanded my heart and challenged everything I thought I knew, what they really gave me was freedom—freedom to unlearn, to question, to define love on my own terms.